This is going to be the first time I see him after the whole clinic ordeal. How will I feel when I see his face? Will the tramatic experience play back again in my mind? My nightmares have minimized itself. I don't wake up screaming anymore, or questioning my decision, at least not all the time. It's like I'm anxious with butterflies in my stomach. You know that feeling when you go on your first date? Yeah, the feeling that's over whelming me at the moment.
It's like for these past weeks, all I wanted to do was be in his arms telling me things will get better. But the distance is what keeps us apart, damn do I dispise that. Again, how will I feel when I see him? Just scared of the unkown at the moment. This will be our starting over moment, when our paths cross tonight.
Does it seem like I'm wishing for the worst but wishing for the best? I think so. I think it would be much easier for me to deal with things if he wasn't here. But is that what I want????? Funny how things seem.
Wishing for the best.....
About Me
- Jenn
- I'm a pretty outgoing person. Living life as a single mother, I don't always see the end of the rainbow but do come close to it. Working full time with a company that treats you like family, sometimes arguing, laughing and talking things through. They are understanding, and that's what I love about it. My friend Miss Angel, loves to write, she has opened me up to expressing myself more than I have. This is a somewhat new experience for me. I pretty much speak my mind way more than write, which in the end I know I won't remember anything :). I plan on allowing any reader who comes across me to experience what's on my mind and the things that I'm going through.. Opinions are very much accepted. Love, always.
1 comment:
So how was it. was it love at first sight..I sooo happy for you..
Angel
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