LonesomeNess.

Is that even a word? After 9 months of being together (in a relationship), that leaves 4 months of semi-loneliness... I've made about 3 trips down to him, he's made one. Can you even consider the last trip a real trip? I know it wasn't, I'd made a visit to the clinic while I was down there this last time, so that doesn't count at all. That would make it 2 trips down to see him. The last time I spent any type of closeness with him, was maybe April. And yes, I'm losing interest. I feel like I'm just here and we are holding on to a title, that really doesn't belong to us.
LonesomesNess...
It's overwhelming at times, but trying to keep my mind off of it is even harder. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm trying to get myself involved as much as I can, it isn't working. Just to go right back to thinking of only him and what's he doing. Our conversation is, just that, is.
LonesomeNess....
I'm tired of telling him, I miss you. And get nothing in return but I know. He's not expressive enough for me, and I try to except it. I need it. I need for him to tell me these things. He's tried, but then goes back to being inexpressive, yet again.